Easter (Candy) Aye Aye Aye

Question of the day, did I eat Easter Candy.....well...umm....uhhh...YES. I did unfortunately and maybe not so much. I bought my kids a VERY limited amount of candy this year for their baskets. They each received a small snack size packet of M&Ms and a small snack size bag of Cadbury Chocolate Eggs (MY FAVORITE). Well, Sarah, why did you buy your kids YOUR favorite Easter candy? I'm still not sure. I do know, I was able to talk myself out of it ALL day.....until this afternoon. I had a sweet tooth and I normally do not struggle with this. Today, it could not be stopped. I tried all of the following self talks:
1. You don't need it. 
2. Is this worth the great taste that will only last 30 seconds but the results will last forever
3. If you do, you will feel shame and will have to share on Facebook.
My inner toddler would not listen to the self talk.
I GAVE IN. I said to myself, I'll just have 1 Cadbury mini egg. 7 Cadbury mini eggs later, I wondered why I allowed myself "only 1" to begin with.

RESULT
I beat myself up for 10 minutes, but moved on. Looking forward.

LESSONS LEARNED
1. Do no buy your kids Easter candy or do not buy YOUR favorite Easter candy.
2. I am stronger that I realize and am still not the same person I used to be. I ONLY ate 7. In the past, in all my shame, I would have finished the bag. I didn't.

STRENGTH
I stopped and realized I perhaps should not have eaten any since sugar makes you want more sugar. I realized my strength in a moment of weakness. I understand that there will be times where I will give into weakness. The key is to not allow the "temporary moment of weakness" to take on a permanent face. Pick up. Move on. Don't Look back.

Happy Easter

You are NOT your Weight Problem

You are not your weight problem. You and your body are 2 separate entities. Yes, you should love yourself, but you should love yourself enough to not stay the same.

Day 1 - In the Books

My thoughts as day one of me new journey comes to a close: 1. It has been quite an emotional day as I'm grieving and saying good bye to my old self and welcoming my new self.
2. I actually believe I can do this
3. My plan is that I don't have a plan that incorporates numbers of any kind ( points, calories, etc.) the only number involved is 2 options. Smart choice or dumb choice.
4. I am surrounded by so much love and support and have shed many happy tears today to know that so many care. Day 2.... Bring it!

Day 1 - Post Run. THAT.WAS.TOUGH

On Your Mark

Day 1 of a difficult journey begins today. I am tired, physically drained and emotionally exhausted. I am ready for change. I am starting a new life today. My lifestyle change that I am sharing with my friends is one that will being a mom that can play longer and harder with her kids. One that has enough left in her tank for her husband at night. One that is not always the last to the top of the stairs. My husband and daughters have been encouraging me for years to "be healthy". It wasn't until something clicked in me that made me decide to make this change. Although I am not ready to post my weight or before pics, I am ready to have 300 plus accountability partners and encouragers. If my posts get annoying there is a blocking function on Facebook....otherwise welcome to my journey, my ride, my insecurities, my fears, my biggest challenge and vulnerability of my life. Andrew...thank you in advanced for your encouragement and inspiration. I know you are my biggest fan. Please bare with my initial and ongoing crabbiness and the time that will be spent making this change. I love you always. Runner, take your mark.....