How do you know your transition is real? You walk all day and you come home and can't wait to go walk again.
#thisisforreal
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Saturday, April 27, 2013
Who do I think I am - Raw Feelings
Okay, so I've been reflecting lately on some of my posts on Facebook and th ings I say to people since my transition. I have SOO much passion that is almost seems too much for me to handle at times. I really try to hold back but it is so hard now that my eyes are opened.
My Fear
I am coming across as someone who thinks she is better than everyone else
Someone who has only been at this for 1 month what does she know
Someone who looks down on those that have not changed.
Friends, THIS IS NOT MY INTENTION AT ALL.
I am:
Someone who cares deeply and hurts with you
Someone who knows EXACTLY how you feel and how hard this is
Someone who wants you to care enough for yourself to not stay the same
Someone who desires better for you
Someone who wants you to be excited about being healthy
Learning:
Those around me will not change unless they want to
I could SCREAM from the rooftops but it takes them to take that step
I will:
Continue to show by example that it is possible
Continue to love others through their trials
Continue to put information out there that I think might be helpful
I was confiding in Andrew about this and then he said, "I know exactly how you feel. That has been my world for the past 10 years when I've tried to get you to eat healthier, and exercise. I had to back off and let you make your decisions. It wasn't until I did that that you decided to change." MAJOR wake up call. I get it. Those around me will not change unless something in them decides to. Got it.
REAL Results - LOVE IT!
Proud mom moment of the day. Me and the girls left the house and I hadn't eaten breakfast and Katelyn was heading to cheer leading without water. So we stopped at a gas station. I picked up a packet of raw almonds and a liter of water and the girls each got water bottles. We went to check out and the gentleman at the front counter said, "What no soda, no candy, no donuts". I kind of looked at him for a second. He said, all other kids that come in here get junk, like everyone from the United States. He looked at the girls and said, "Keep up the good work and keep drinking water. You're doing a great job". The girls grinned all the way out of the gas station.
Real results that are WORTH IT!
Real results that are WORTH IT!
What are you doing today?
I was feeling blah about working out today. I then received a message from a long time friend. She was paralyzed on one side from the waist down from an infection and has been walking unassisted, baffling all her doctors as she started training for a 10k. This particular 10K means a lot to her adopted daughter since it benefits adoption. She walked in a 10K with her daughter today on SAND. With the advice of her trainer, she came in at 1.5 miles just to be safe so she walked a total of 4.56 miles. Longest she's walked UNASSISTED since she was diagnosed. Friends. This.is.huge. What are we going to get out and do today?
Friday, April 26, 2013
Unhealthy impacts more than just you
Found this in my work notebook today. If this doesn't speak volumes to how my old lifestyle was not just impacting me...I don't know what does.
Week 5 Weigh In
Pounds Lost: 17.4
What weighs 17 pounds: A bald eagle carrying a chihuahua
Inches Lost: 10
Weekly Fitness
Walk/Run: 13.22 miles
Eliptical: 1 hours
Zumba: 1 hour
Yoga: 30 minutes
Benefits Felt
1. OFF ANTIDEPRESSANTS after being on them for over 17 years - I am now med free
2. Jogging in longer spurts during walk/jog
3. Empowered
4. Energy level is up
5. Stress level lower
6. Skin is more clear
7. Brain is more sharp and thinking is clear
8. I see the world in a brighter light
9. Getting out of the car when parked close to another is not a challenge any longer
10. Daughters asked me to never go back to being unhealthy again.
Struggles (got to keep it real)
1. Boredom on the machines
How to combat: Joining more classes
2. Focused on the big picture and the end goal too much this week. Felt discouraged
How to combat: Meditated on what I needed to do THAT day to keep on track
3. Calorie deficit should have caused 4 lbs weight loss this week
How to combat: Calorie zigzag (look it up). I was getting too low of a calorie amount and my body was going into starvation. Have increased my calories (nutrition dense foods).
What weighs 17 pounds: A bald eagle carrying a chihuahua
Inches Lost: 10
Weekly Fitness
Walk/Run: 13.22 miles
Eliptical: 1 hours
Zumba: 1 hour
Yoga: 30 minutes
Benefits Felt
1. OFF ANTIDEPRESSANTS after being on them for over 17 years - I am now med free
2. Jogging in longer spurts during walk/jog
3. Empowered
4. Energy level is up
5. Stress level lower
6. Skin is more clear
7. Brain is more sharp and thinking is clear
8. I see the world in a brighter light
9. Getting out of the car when parked close to another is not a challenge any longer
10. Daughters asked me to never go back to being unhealthy again.
Struggles (got to keep it real)
1. Boredom on the machines
How to combat: Joining more classes
2. Focused on the big picture and the end goal too much this week. Felt discouraged
How to combat: Meditated on what I needed to do THAT day to keep on track
3. Calorie deficit should have caused 4 lbs weight loss this week
How to combat: Calorie zigzag (look it up). I was getting too low of a calorie amount and my body was going into starvation. Have increased my calories (nutrition dense foods).
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Walk / Run Reflections
Reflections from my Run/Walk Today
I am living life with colored glasses on now. Before my life change, everything was in black and white and dull.
With my new glasses on:
I feel more fully
I live more vigorously
I play more playfully
I laugh more joyfully
I love more passionately
I AM HEALTHY (on the inside and out) and I wouldn't change it for ANYTHING.
Every.Last.Step
I am living life with colored glasses on now. Before my life change, everything was in black and white and dull.
With my new glasses on:
I feel more fully
I live more vigorously
I play more playfully
I laugh more joyfully
I love more passionately
I AM HEALTHY (on the inside and out) and I wouldn't change it for ANYTHING.
Every.Last.Step
Healthy Eating Myth #5
If a food says low fat, it is the better option for you
Fact
I challenge you to read the labels of 2 identical foods (Low fat version vs. regular version) the next time you are in the grocery store. Just because it says low fat, does not make it automatically healthier than the other version. In order to make up for the fat that is taken out, they then load them with salt and cheap carbohydrates. Your body NEEDS healthy fats that are found in Avocados, Almonds, certain Nut butters, etc. Don't completely cut fat out and replace it with sodium and other additives. It is NOT better for you. I bought into this lie for YEARS.
Tips:
1. When going to the grocery store, make sure you have enough time to read labels of foods you are buying. Educate yourself. Education of this type is free
2. Use the internet to gain knowledge on nutritional values of foods.
3. Talk to your doctor and get tips on healthy eating.
Remember. You. Are. Worth it!!!!!!
Fact
I challenge you to read the labels of 2 identical foods (Low fat version vs. regular version) the next time you are in the grocery store. Just because it says low fat, does not make it automatically healthier than the other version. In order to make up for the fat that is taken out, they then load them with salt and cheap carbohydrates. Your body NEEDS healthy fats that are found in Avocados, Almonds, certain Nut butters, etc. Don't completely cut fat out and replace it with sodium and other additives. It is NOT better for you. I bought into this lie for YEARS.
Tips:
1. When going to the grocery store, make sure you have enough time to read labels of foods you are buying. Educate yourself. Education of this type is free
2. Use the internet to gain knowledge on nutritional values of foods.
3. Talk to your doctor and get tips on healthy eating.
Remember. You. Are. Worth it!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
One of the many reasons I will NEVER quit
Highlight of my day: "mom you have so much energy and are so silly now" I like it.
Melt.my.heart
Melt.my.heart
Healthy Eating Myth #4
It takes too long to cook healthy
Fact
It takes longer to drive to a fast food joint or other restaurant to pick up food then to cook yourself. I could easily spend 30 minutes (round trip/waiting in line) driving to a junk food joint then just cooking the meal myself. You have two options:
1. You can either spend some time now, cooking yourself something that your body will thank you for
2. Wast time and money at doctor appointments later on in life, because you didn't take the time now to feed your body what it deserves
Tips:
1. Prepare meals on Sunday, and freeze your food for the week
2. Prepare meals in bulk and eat left overs
3. Visit the web. There are several websites that have easy/fast/healthy recipes.
www.vegweb.com
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/recipes.asp
Remember. You. Are. Worth it!!!!!!
Fact
It takes longer to drive to a fast food joint or other restaurant to pick up food then to cook yourself. I could easily spend 30 minutes (round trip/waiting in line) driving to a junk food joint then just cooking the meal myself. You have two options:
1. You can either spend some time now, cooking yourself something that your body will thank you for
2. Wast time and money at doctor appointments later on in life, because you didn't take the time now to feed your body what it deserves
Tips:
1. Prepare meals on Sunday, and freeze your food for the week
2. Prepare meals in bulk and eat left overs
3. Visit the web. There are several websites that have easy/fast/healthy recipes.
www.vegweb.com
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/recipes.asp
Remember. You. Are. Worth it!!!!!!
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Healthy Eating Myth #3
Fact
When we first started eating healthier, there were protests. "This food is disgusting." "Why can't we have macaroni and cheese." "I wan't peanut butter and jelly". Our response, "This is what is for dinner. If you are really hungry you will eat what is on your plate. You do not have to eat everything on your plate, but you have to try one bite." Last night we had mushroom, zucchini and squash pita pockets." I thought for sure our girls would not eat it. But rules are rules, and I put it on their plates. They both eventually took a bite and said, "Wow, this looks gross but it tastes so good." Katelyn now is reading labels and taking after us. Model for your family the way you want them to go. IT WORKS!!!! One of my convictions has been, "I am the one that cooks around here. What I make and put on their plates, they eat. I love them WAY too much to put junk in their bodies."
Keep at it, they will not starve themselves, I promise.
Breakfast Smoothie - Fabulous
YUMMO!!!!
Green smoothie:
1/2 banana
12 oz coconut milk
1 cup raw spinach
1 ice cube
Blend and enjoy
160 calories
Green smoothie:
1/2 banana
12 oz coconut milk
1 cup raw spinach
1 ice cube
Blend and enjoy
160 calories
Monday, April 22, 2013
Eating Healthy Myth #2
It is a good idea to cut out all carbs
Fact
If you cut out all carbs, you will not have the energy needed to workout. Although it is a good idea to limit carbs to healthy carbs, it is recommended that about 50% of your daily food intake come from healthy carbs.
http://www.livestrong.com/article/36528-list-carbs/
Fact
If you cut out all carbs, you will not have the energy needed to workout. Although it is a good idea to limit carbs to healthy carbs, it is recommended that about 50% of your daily food intake come from healthy carbs.
http://www.livestrong.com/article/36528-list-carbs/
Free Recipe Alert
Had to post this recipe. I am still thinking about how good it was. I had 1 half a flax seed/wheat pita pocket filled with this and a side of fresh kiwi/mango. SOOO good. I added sqaush to the mixture. I didn't refridgerate overnight. Left the salt out. Used vegan cheese. It was delish. Even the girls eventually tried it and LOVED IT!
http://www.tasteofhome.com/recipes/portobello-pockets
http://www.tasteofhome.com/recipes/portobello-pockets
Mental Obstacle
WOW! Today's work out was one of the toughest so far. I did an hour on the elliptical. I burned 457 calories. I was not able to push as hard as I usually do. I was able to stay on the elliptical for an hour, but I wanted to get off soooo bad. I was extremely bored and exhausted. Usually I have enough mental toughness to push through, and although I did today, I still feel as though I fell short. Then I realized somethings.
1. I still burned 457 calories
2. I still worked out for an hour
3. I still ate EXTREMELY healthy today
4. I still got on the elliptical
5. I am still DOING THIS
6. I have hundreds of supporters behind me (THANK YOU!!!!)
I also realized my sleeping duration has really not been great the past few days. I've had so much energy at night that I stay up too late. Getting up early creates a deficit that is hindering my ability to be able to talk myself through some of this fatigue.
Goal to Tackle This:
1. REST. I am going to bed early tonight
2. Listen to my body
3. KEEP AT IT
1. I still burned 457 calories
2. I still worked out for an hour
3. I still ate EXTREMELY healthy today
4. I still got on the elliptical
5. I am still DOING THIS
6. I have hundreds of supporters behind me (THANK YOU!!!!)
I also realized my sleeping duration has really not been great the past few days. I've had so much energy at night that I stay up too late. Getting up early creates a deficit that is hindering my ability to be able to talk myself through some of this fatigue.
Goal to Tackle This:
1. REST. I am going to bed early tonight
2. Listen to my body
3. KEEP AT IT
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Weekly Reflections: Nutrition
Weight loss is 70% diet and 30% exercise. Working out takes a mental toughness beyond any other. A physical strength (everyone has their own level) beyond compare and a drive that cannot be stopped. Thought to self: If I am working this hard on the outside, WHY in the world would I want to trash the inside by choosing to not eat healthy.
Note: I am not lecturing, guilting, belittling, or judging. I am on this journey too. I am passionate about getting information out there and showing others that they have what it takes and to believe. This week, I will be posting 1 myth/fact each day about nutrition and eating healthy. These are ALL myths that I have believed up until now. I am not a physician, nutritionist, personal trainer and do not claim to be. I AM someone who is learning as she goes and does not want others to continue to believe lies they've been taught.
Myth 1: Eating healthy is expensive
Fact: Of my 2 hour shopping trip, I spent most of my time in the produce section. My items were about 2/3 produce (fruits/veggies). The outside of the store is where most of the healthy items are maintained. Unloading the cart, was a bit nerve wracking. The final total bill estimates were running through my head. I thought FOR SURE this is going to be one of the most expensive shopping trips of my life. To my shock and dismay, it was actually CHEAPER than buying processed/boxed foods. Even if it does sometimes cost more and take time to shop healthy and read labels, I'd much rather spend my time and money educating myself and my daughters during a shopping trip than in an emergency room and at doctor's visits because I chose not to educate myself and eat healthy.
Tips:
1. Buy produce when in season. There are websites that outline when produce is in season. It is MUCH cheaper this way.
2. I've seen websites where you can plug in ingredients and it spits out a recipe. Make what is cheap and in season.
3. You DON'T need several sides at one meal. Limit the number of sides. Every night is not Thanksgiving.
4. Make eating out a "treat". That way, you are cooking the food and you know what is in it. Every restaurant does not have a nutritional guide. Takes the guesswork out. Plus you save money.
Love you. Empower you. Respect You.
Note: I am not lecturing, guilting, belittling, or judging. I am on this journey too. I am passionate about getting information out there and showing others that they have what it takes and to believe. This week, I will be posting 1 myth/fact each day about nutrition and eating healthy. These are ALL myths that I have believed up until now. I am not a physician, nutritionist, personal trainer and do not claim to be. I AM someone who is learning as she goes and does not want others to continue to believe lies they've been taught.
Myth 1: Eating healthy is expensive
Fact: Of my 2 hour shopping trip, I spent most of my time in the produce section. My items were about 2/3 produce (fruits/veggies). The outside of the store is where most of the healthy items are maintained. Unloading the cart, was a bit nerve wracking. The final total bill estimates were running through my head. I thought FOR SURE this is going to be one of the most expensive shopping trips of my life. To my shock and dismay, it was actually CHEAPER than buying processed/boxed foods. Even if it does sometimes cost more and take time to shop healthy and read labels, I'd much rather spend my time and money educating myself and my daughters during a shopping trip than in an emergency room and at doctor's visits because I chose not to educate myself and eat healthy.
Tips:
1. Buy produce when in season. There are websites that outline when produce is in season. It is MUCH cheaper this way.
2. I've seen websites where you can plug in ingredients and it spits out a recipe. Make what is cheap and in season.
3. You DON'T need several sides at one meal. Limit the number of sides. Every night is not Thanksgiving.
4. Make eating out a "treat". That way, you are cooking the food and you know what is in it. Every restaurant does not have a nutritional guide. Takes the guesswork out. Plus you save money.
Love you. Empower you. Respect You.
Saturday, April 20, 2013
New Adventures - No Regrets
Skating with my hubby for the first time!! 80s again!! A month ago this would have never happened...
#healthylife #newadventures
#healthylife #newadventures
Friday, April 19, 2013
Bad nutrition confessional
I had double my recommended sodium today. I also ate 200 more calories than I budgeted. I knew at dinner I shouldn't have eaten the third corn tortilla and I slipped back into the justifications in my mind.
Lessons learned
1. Read labels!!!! Just because it says low calorie doesn't make it healthy. Sodium in food is NO JOKE.
2. I learn more in my weak moments than in my successes. I'm thankful for tomorrows and new days.
Moving on.
I had double my recommended sodium today. I also ate 200 more calories than I budgeted. I knew at dinner I shouldn't have eaten the third corn tortilla and I slipped back into the justifications in my mind.
Lessons learned
1. Read labels!!!! Just because it says low calorie doesn't make it healthy. Sodium in food is NO JOKE.
2. I learn more in my weak moments than in my successes. I'm thankful for tomorrows and new days.
Moving on.
Month 1 Weigh In
15 pounds lost
What weighs 15 pounds: 10 dozen large eggs
Size lost: 1.5 sizes
Clothes to Goodwill: 3 pair jeans that I can pull off and on without unbuttoning
Weekly Fitness
Walk/Run: 10.67 miles
Eliptical: 2 hours 15 minutes
Benefits Felt
Playing on the floor with the girls
Can pull my stretches further and hold longer
Getting easier to control my eating (becoming a habit)
Energy level is up
Stress level lower
Able to wear a pair of jeans I haven't put on in over a year
Month 2, I'm looking forward to us meeting
What weighs 15 pounds: 10 dozen large eggs
Size lost: 1.5 sizes
Clothes to Goodwill: 3 pair jeans that I can pull off and on without unbuttoning
Weekly Fitness
Walk/Run: 10.67 miles
Eliptical: 2 hours 15 minutes
Benefits Felt
Playing on the floor with the girls
Can pull my stretches further and hold longer
Getting easier to control my eating (becoming a habit)
Energy level is up
Stress level lower
Able to wear a pair of jeans I haven't put on in over a year
Month 2, I'm looking forward to us meeting
Sign that it might be time to purchase an iPhone arm strap
After my run/walk tonight, I pulled my iPhone out of "it's snug and secure spot" and noticed I had an email. I go to check my email only to realize it was an order confirmation from Zulily for my purchase of 9 Minnie Mouse lamps. While I'm sure my girls would appreciate the gesture, I was not ready to purchase 9 mini mouse lamps, let alone 1 Minnie Mouse lamp. I couldn't figure out how that happened, then I realized, I just placed my first boob order. Good thing I was able to cancel.....
What's my Secret?
Pssst. You. Yes you. You, the beautiful one. Come closer. I am going to share my weight loss "secret" for all that have asked. It is really complicated so get a pen and paper. Let me know when you're ready. Okay, ready?
1. Eat Healthy
2. Exercise
... Weight loss is 70% Eating and 30% exercise. For the equation to be effective though, you have to do BOTH.
I am only one month into my journey, and it is hard work. But YOU.ARE.WORTH.IT. Believe that. Love you and the rest will follow.
1. Eat Healthy
2. Exercise
... Weight loss is 70% Eating and 30% exercise. For the equation to be effective though, you have to do BOTH.
I am only one month into my journey, and it is hard work. But YOU.ARE.WORTH.IT. Believe that. Love you and the rest will follow.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
How to Celebrate 1 Month Anniversary - NOT WITH CAKE
That is how you celebrate a one month anniversary the RIGHT way. 1 hour later . Sarah one. Elliptical zero.
Month 1 Reflection
WOW!!! Hard to believe it has been 1 month to the day that I made a choice. Not to simply exist, but to LIVE. My friends, there is a difference and I can testify to the difference.
Past
I was existing. I was limping (literally). I hurt nonstop. Feet, hips, knees. I was refusing to sit on the floor with my girls, and dreaded the look in their eyes when they didn't know why their mom wouldn't get on the floor with them to play. I had a fear that I would not be able to get up. I had a fear of flying. Not the normal fear that you think of. A fear that the seatbelt wouldn't fit one day. A fear of getting teased. Not that I would get teased, but that my daughters would get teased for having a mom that overweight. A fear of going to amusment parks with my family that I wouldn't be able to walk the entire day, or not be able to fit through the turnstyle. A fear that everyone I walked by, with Andrew by my side, would think "Why is he with her? He can do MUCH better than that". These WERE very real fears. They CONSUMED me.
Present
I am LIVING. I LOVE to sit on the floor and play with my girls. I look forward to flying to see how much extra room is left on the seat belt strap. I look forward to dropping my kids off at school and am proud to walk in as their mom. I cannot wait to eat out. Not for the same reasons as before, but because I am empowered and LOVE that I make smart powerful choices for me. I LOVE that I leave food on plate at resturants.I LOVE going out with my husband and not having the fear of everyone looking at us wondering why we are together. The fears have changed to celebrations. Every day is now a celebration to me. I am changed on the inside and am now working hard to get the outside match my healthy inside.
Future
I plan to continue LIVING. I cannot wait for my feet, my hip and my knees to stop hurting. I cannot wait to go clothes shopping with my daughters and try on clothes together. I cannot wait to be able to run an entire 5K without walking. I cannot wait to go to an amusement park with my kids and OUTLAST my family. I cannot wait for my youngest daughter to be able to wrap her arms fully around me. I cannot wait to be in the front row in my body pump class and be that girl that is keeping up with the instructor. I cannot wait to RUN my first marathan with my husband and girls waiting at the finish line to cheer me on. I cannot wait to be 110 pounds lighter. I cannot wait to LIVE the rest of my life.
Why
I am not sharing for sympathy, I am sharing to break a silence that has paralyzed me for years. I am sharing to help others out from under their shame and silence. It is OK to let your fears be known. It highlights your strengths more than weaknesses.
"Once we know our weaknesses they cease to do us any harm" Georg C. Lichtenberg. OWN your weaknesses. Know them. Work them. Change them. I am, and I have NO regrets.
Every.Last.Step
A New Addiction
These days I'm feeling more addicted to health, life, and working out...MUCH more than food. I can't describe the feeling. It is INCREDIBLE
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
My Motivational Picture
Everyone that has a goal about their healthy weight, should print a picture of you at your goal weight and put it next to your desk or mirror. Somewhere that you frequent several times a day. The below photo is me at my goal weight and is right next to my computer at work. WE GOT THIS!!!
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
New Secret Weapon
Bodybugg arrived......GAME ON. This device is worn on my left arm and measures METs given off. A MET is a Metabolic Equivalent of Task. Depending upon the amount of heat determined, the device takes the METs and converts them into calories burned. I input my nutrition consumed. This device combined with the app on my iPhone, provides me with the calorie deficit. My deficit goal is at least 1000 per day. Meeting this goal would allow me to lose at least 2 pounds per week. 1 pound = approximately 3500 calories. LET's DO THIS!
Monday, April 15, 2013
Boston Tragedy
Seriously, this Boston Marathon tragedy hits SOOO close to home. I can't even count the number of races I've spectated. Every one, I walk away with a new form of inspiration, never felt before. Whether it be the joy of watching an 80 year old cross for the finish line for his 50th marathon, or a couple holding hands crossing. I never walk away thinking, wow, really wish I wasn't here. I think about the girls and I, waiting anxiously for daddy, eager to see him cross....This tragedy just SCREAMS the opposite of what races are supposed to represent.
Dear Terrorists: I will NOT stop spectating races. I will NOT stop participating in races. I will NOT be afraid. I WILL live my life. I WILL support the racing community. I WILL cheer others on who are trying to better themselves and their lives.
This day is sooooo sad. So very sad. Still praying.......
Dear Terrorists: I will NOT stop spectating races. I will NOT stop participating in races. I will NOT be afraid. I WILL live my life. I WILL support the racing community. I WILL cheer others on who are trying to better themselves and their lives.
This day is sooooo sad. So very sad. Still praying.......
Weekend Struggle (they happen)
So this weekend, I began to struggle a bit. Not with my eating, not with my exercising, but with my mental state. This is my first experience during my new lifestyle where I've had to cope with the dreaded monthly visitor. I knew it was going to happen, and sure enough, it reared its head this weekend. My thoughts? When am I ever going to lose all this weight. I know, I know, it's a process. It takes time. You'll get there soon enough. You didn't put it on overnight and it's not going to come off overnight. I know all the things that people normally tell you.
Why does this happen
I am a completely new person on the inside. I am a fit and healthy person now, who treats her body with respect and feeds it to match. I am also exercising and caring for my body like one that loves herself. The frustration comes when the outside of my body does not match the inside. Since I have come to terms with my weight, and I now see it for what it is, I SEE IT ALL!!!! I am working VERY hard to make the outside reconcile with who I now am on the inside
Tips for others struggling
Continue to love yourself. Forgive yourself. Respect yourself. Give yourself time. Repeat positive thoughts. How did I get through? I repeated positive thoughts to myself. I reminded myself that I am a new person. I drew from my inner strength that is no longer hiding under my shame. I fought thorugh, I stayed strong, I ate well and I exercised. I had to weigh myself this morning to show myself not only CAN I do this, I AM still doing this. No mater how much my daily mental may change, I am still doing this. I lost 2 pounds just this weekend. Don't stop just becuase you have an off day. KEEP GOING!!! You are worth it! Every.last.step
Why does this happen
I am a completely new person on the inside. I am a fit and healthy person now, who treats her body with respect and feeds it to match. I am also exercising and caring for my body like one that loves herself. The frustration comes when the outside of my body does not match the inside. Since I have come to terms with my weight, and I now see it for what it is, I SEE IT ALL!!!! I am working VERY hard to make the outside reconcile with who I now am on the inside
Tips for others struggling
Continue to love yourself. Forgive yourself. Respect yourself. Give yourself time. Repeat positive thoughts. How did I get through? I repeated positive thoughts to myself. I reminded myself that I am a new person. I drew from my inner strength that is no longer hiding under my shame. I fought thorugh, I stayed strong, I ate well and I exercised. I had to weigh myself this morning to show myself not only CAN I do this, I AM still doing this. No mater how much my daily mental may change, I am still doing this. I lost 2 pounds just this weekend. Don't stop just becuase you have an off day. KEEP GOING!!! You are worth it! Every.last.step
Friday, April 12, 2013
My Motto
A month ago I couldn't run to save my life....now I'm running to save my life. I'm worth it.
End of Week 4
Week 4 weigh in: 11 pounds lost
What weighs 11 pounds: Average housecat
Size lost: 1 size
Clothes to Goodwill: 1 pair jeans that I can pull off and on without unbuttoning
Weekly Fitness
Body Pump: 60 min
Bike Ride: 1.0 mile (First time on a bike in 10 years)
Walk: 8.63 miles
Eliptical: 40 min
Yoga: 20 min
Benefits Felt:
Katelyn's hands now overlap when she hugs me
Both girls were able to snuggle on the couch with me, without being too squished
Sat in a booth this week without anxiety
Energy level is up
Stress level lower
Able to wear fav pair of jean capri's
Bring on Week 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What weighs 11 pounds: Average housecat
Size lost: 1 size
Clothes to Goodwill: 1 pair jeans that I can pull off and on without unbuttoning
Weekly Fitness
Body Pump: 60 min
Bike Ride: 1.0 mile (First time on a bike in 10 years)
Walk: 8.63 miles
Eliptical: 40 min
Yoga: 20 min
Benefits Felt:
Katelyn's hands now overlap when she hugs me
Both girls were able to snuggle on the couch with me, without being too squished
Sat in a booth this week without anxiety
Energy level is up
Stress level lower
Able to wear fav pair of jean capri's
Bring on Week 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Worth It
Listening to the girls playing the other day....confirms my life change is so worth it for so many reasons. They were cooking in their play kitchen for their dolls. They were talking to them saying, " I know you want a hot dog but its not healthy. I've made you a salad." Didn't realize what an impact this would have on my two beautiful daughters. So thankful for God and Him getting my attention.
Focus
As my body is starting to ache a bit and I am nearing one month at this, I am trying to stay focused on the baby steps, rather than, "How am I ever going to get to the top of this Mount Everest I've created".
Then I found this: “It is better to take many small steps in the right direction than to make a great leap forward only to stumble backward.” ~Old Chinese Proverb
Friends, this is so true. Whatever type of journey you are on, please rest in the fact that when taking smaller steps toward a goal, each step is more productive, carefully thought out, and planned. This is the way you make an instant decision to change your life last forever. I am going to rest in this today. EVERY.LAST.STEP
Then I found this: “It is better to take many small steps in the right direction than to make a great leap forward only to stumble backward.” ~Old Chinese Proverb
Friends, this is so true. Whatever type of journey you are on, please rest in the fact that when taking smaller steps toward a goal, each step is more productive, carefully thought out, and planned. This is the way you make an instant decision to change your life last forever. I am going to rest in this today. EVERY.LAST.STEP
Monday, April 8, 2013
Start of Week 4
Wow, what a journey it's been so far. Hard to believe by the end of this week, I will have achieved my goal to make it four weeks straight, working out at least 5 days a week. You know what I get at the end of this week, right? A PEDICURE!!! Most importantly, I get to call this a habit. THAT, folks, is a milestone in and of itself for me. For those that know my personality, they know I used to be gung ho for a 2 weeks, then usually get tired and give in. This is yet another sign to myself that I am NOT weak. I am strong and can achieve anything, with God by my side.
Why am I being so public
Some may question why I am putting all of this out there. Too much information, perhaps? Well, as I said in the beginning of my journey, I am putting the REAL me out there. No more hiding. Hiding, for me, was what birthed more shame. If I hide, I am shameful and the vicious cycle that tears me down starts again. I really DO NOT LIKE being the center of attention. This is all really out of my comfort zone. I am NOT feeling sorry for myself. I DO NOT want any to EVER feel sorry for me. I DO LOVE myself, which is I am here now. I got myself here and I am working VERY hard to get myself to a healthy place. If my posts seems like I'm being too hard on myself, perhaps I am, BUT that is what is going to push me more. I KNOW my limits. If it is too much for some to handle, keep moving. I don't mind. My feelings will not be hurt. I really do need to do this for me. It is causing a tremendous growth in me. It is causing me to not hide behind my weight any longer. I am seeing myself in a new light, in the way God intended. I only want those to be a part of this journey that really want to be. If I can help one other person on their own journey, to spark a life change, that is an added benefit. Love you all and thank you for listening and for your continued support. It really does mean so much.
Weekend Reflections
I am an addict. A food addict. I loved mostly fast food. To me, it was a "Treat". I would say to myself, "Go ahead Sarah, you deserve it". Thinking back on those statements, I realized, I thought that little of myself to say I deserved putting that CRAP in my body. Really, that's all I thought of myself? That's not love. That is lust and feeding an addiction.
Like any other addiction, this is not going to be a month long process. This is not going to be a year long process. This is for the REST.OF.MY.LIFE. I better get used to this, because I plan to live A.VERY.LONG.TIME. If I'm going to get used to this, I need practice. I am going to mess up along the way. THAT is OKAY. What is NOT okay, is to use that as an excuse to stay down. My past pitfall, "I messed up". "I failed". "I may as well give in". Not anymore. You mess up, you move on. That is my new motto. Love yourself enough to forgive yourself and MOVE ON.
Why am I being so public
Some may question why I am putting all of this out there. Too much information, perhaps? Well, as I said in the beginning of my journey, I am putting the REAL me out there. No more hiding. Hiding, for me, was what birthed more shame. If I hide, I am shameful and the vicious cycle that tears me down starts again. I really DO NOT LIKE being the center of attention. This is all really out of my comfort zone. I am NOT feeling sorry for myself. I DO NOT want any to EVER feel sorry for me. I DO LOVE myself, which is I am here now. I got myself here and I am working VERY hard to get myself to a healthy place. If my posts seems like I'm being too hard on myself, perhaps I am, BUT that is what is going to push me more. I KNOW my limits. If it is too much for some to handle, keep moving. I don't mind. My feelings will not be hurt. I really do need to do this for me. It is causing a tremendous growth in me. It is causing me to not hide behind my weight any longer. I am seeing myself in a new light, in the way God intended. I only want those to be a part of this journey that really want to be. If I can help one other person on their own journey, to spark a life change, that is an added benefit. Love you all and thank you for listening and for your continued support. It really does mean so much.
Weekend Reflections
I am an addict. A food addict. I loved mostly fast food. To me, it was a "Treat". I would say to myself, "Go ahead Sarah, you deserve it". Thinking back on those statements, I realized, I thought that little of myself to say I deserved putting that CRAP in my body. Really, that's all I thought of myself? That's not love. That is lust and feeding an addiction.
Like any other addiction, this is not going to be a month long process. This is not going to be a year long process. This is for the REST.OF.MY.LIFE. I better get used to this, because I plan to live A.VERY.LONG.TIME. If I'm going to get used to this, I need practice. I am going to mess up along the way. THAT is OKAY. What is NOT okay, is to use that as an excuse to stay down. My past pitfall, "I messed up". "I failed". "I may as well give in". Not anymore. You mess up, you move on. That is my new motto. Love yourself enough to forgive yourself and MOVE ON.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
First Challenge
My biggest cheerleaders and my first eating out experience since my life change at Chuy's. Mexican food can be very dangerous, but you can also be smart and eat right. I had the best of both worlds and nailed it.
Friday, April 5, 2013
End of Week 3
Pounds Lost: 10 (no that wasn't a typo)
Pounds to Lose: 112
What weighs 10 pounds: chemical additives an American consumes each year
(sparkpeople.com)
Weekly Motto
Changed from "I can do this" to, "I AM doing this"
Weekly Reflections
This week was all about reflecting on what brought me to this point. What was the big change that sparked it all. The big change......I learned to love myself. I was able to learn to love myself because I was able to, in my mind, separate my weight with who I am. They are NOT one in the same. I had so much shame with my weight issue, that I was not able to "Shine" and be who God created me to be. I am amazed DAILY at the changes I am feeling after just 10 pounds lost and 3 weeks of exercise (mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically). I am FIGHTING for my life, health, freedom, and quality of life. Since I learned to love myself, that is a fight well worth it.
Benefits Felt so Far
1. I do not dread lifting up either of my girls to hold them. Even my 7 year old. They both ask me to hold them and I always say, "Can daddy? I can't lift you". Not anymore. My strength is gaining by the day.
2. When going to pick up the trash cans at the curb this week, I started to tear as I realized I was jogging down to get them. Without even realizing. In the past I would have been huffing and puffing.
3. It is OK to have down time. It is hard mentally for me to skip a day, because in the PAST, I would skip a day and that day would turn into 2, into 10, into forever. I realized, I am navigating this ship. If I CHOOSE to take a day, it does not mean this ship is going to get control of me. I am still in control. It is GOOD to rest.
4. My body does not hurt and ache like it used to. That is just 10 pounds. If 10 pounds lost can do this, imagine what 122 pounds can do.
5. THE MOST IMPORTANT BENEFIT: I am able to love my husband and my daughters more fully. When you don't love yourself, you really cannot love others the way God designed. The love seems so much more vivid. Hard to explain but felt every day.
Pounds to Lose: 112
What weighs 10 pounds: chemical additives an American consumes each year
(sparkpeople.com)
Weekly Motto
Changed from "I can do this" to, "I AM doing this"
Weekly Reflections
This week was all about reflecting on what brought me to this point. What was the big change that sparked it all. The big change......I learned to love myself. I was able to learn to love myself because I was able to, in my mind, separate my weight with who I am. They are NOT one in the same. I had so much shame with my weight issue, that I was not able to "Shine" and be who God created me to be. I am amazed DAILY at the changes I am feeling after just 10 pounds lost and 3 weeks of exercise (mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically). I am FIGHTING for my life, health, freedom, and quality of life. Since I learned to love myself, that is a fight well worth it.
Benefits Felt so Far
1. I do not dread lifting up either of my girls to hold them. Even my 7 year old. They both ask me to hold them and I always say, "Can daddy? I can't lift you". Not anymore. My strength is gaining by the day.
2. When going to pick up the trash cans at the curb this week, I started to tear as I realized I was jogging down to get them. Without even realizing. In the past I would have been huffing and puffing.
3. It is OK to have down time. It is hard mentally for me to skip a day, because in the PAST, I would skip a day and that day would turn into 2, into 10, into forever. I realized, I am navigating this ship. If I CHOOSE to take a day, it does not mean this ship is going to get control of me. I am still in control. It is GOOD to rest.
4. My body does not hurt and ache like it used to. That is just 10 pounds. If 10 pounds lost can do this, imagine what 122 pounds can do.
5. THE MOST IMPORTANT BENEFIT: I am able to love my husband and my daughters more fully. When you don't love yourself, you really cannot love others the way God designed. The love seems so much more vivid. Hard to explain but felt every day.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Note to all Gym Frequenters
Please do not let my post from yesterday, give you a bad taste in your mouth about Gyms. This was ONE instructor out of many caring, kind, and compassionate trainers, teachers and leaders. If you find one that says something the wrong way, don't like their music, whatever the issue is, find another instructor. Do not let this be just another EXCUSE to not go to the gym or not to work out. This is YOUR life. Live it.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Note to fitness instructors, coaches, personal trainers, or wanna be any of those
Don't say the following to larger people in your class, WE ALREADY KNOW:
1. "Lose that wiggle in your mid-section"
2. "Stop being lazy, push harder"
3. You're going too slow
These are all so negative and do not inspire one bit. Guess what:
1. I know I need to lose the wiggle in my mid-section. That's why I stepped into your class.
2. I know it appears as though I'm not pushing as hard as everyone else. It's not because I don't have the fight in me. I am trying not to injure myself so I won't give up. In fact, I probably have more fight in me than most people here.
3. YOU DON'T KNOW ME! You don't know what is going through my head every step I take.
4. You don't know that despite the pouring rain and me having to carry my five year old through the parking lot, I STILL parked in the very last parking spot to make EVERY.LAST.STEP count.
5. You don't know that I am working out 2x a day most days of the week.
6. You don't know that I am not the same I once was.
Your words are NOT motivating, they tear down, discourage and would have made me want to throw in the towel (if it were me 2 weeks and 3 days ago). Instead, I stayed, I pushed, I fought, I hurt, I sweat and I will step into your class again. Never will I be the same again.
1. "Lose that wiggle in your mid-section"
2. "Stop being lazy, push harder"
3. You're going too slow
These are all so negative and do not inspire one bit. Guess what:
1. I know I need to lose the wiggle in my mid-section. That's why I stepped into your class.
2. I know it appears as though I'm not pushing as hard as everyone else. It's not because I don't have the fight in me. I am trying not to injure myself so I won't give up. In fact, I probably have more fight in me than most people here.
3. YOU DON'T KNOW ME! You don't know what is going through my head every step I take.
4. You don't know that despite the pouring rain and me having to carry my five year old through the parking lot, I STILL parked in the very last parking spot to make EVERY.LAST.STEP count.
5. You don't know that I am working out 2x a day most days of the week.
6. You don't know that I am not the same I once was.
Your words are NOT motivating, they tear down, discourage and would have made me want to throw in the towel (if it were me 2 weeks and 3 days ago). Instead, I stayed, I pushed, I fought, I hurt, I sweat and I will step into your class again. Never will I be the same again.
Monday, April 1, 2013
What does Every.Last.Step mean to me
1. Every time I head to the gym...I park in the very last parking spot
2. I go at least a minute more then I set out to, at the gym
3. I go a few steps further during my walk then I promise myself
4. I look for the furthest instead of closest spot when shopping
I am not cheating myself. I am taking Every.Last.Step
2. I go at least a minute more then I set out to, at the gym
3. I go a few steps further during my walk then I promise myself
4. I look for the furthest instead of closest spot when shopping
I am not cheating myself. I am taking Every.Last.Step
Start of Week 3 (This is becoming a habit ya'll)
Long Term Fitness Goal Announcement
MARATHON!!! What, you crazy girl--no way. Ummm Yes-way. My long term fitness goal to celebrate my weight loss and new life style will be for me to compete in a Marathon. Event to be determined. Details to Follow
Blog / Website Update
I have started my blog / website. I will have a website that includes my blog. As the website progresses, it will include healthy recipes, exercises, other weight loss blogs, inspirational quotes, before/after pictures and other fun and exciting things...
Week Fitness Goals:
Monday - Walk/Jog: 2.0 Miles; Gym: Eliptical 40 minutes
Tuesday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Spin Class
Wednesday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Body Pump / Core CX Works
Thursday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Easy Spin 20 minutes
Friday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Eliptical 30 minutes
Saturday - Walk / Jog 3.0 Miles
Sunday- Off
Week Eating Goals:
1. I've determined I need to raise my daily intake of calories, a TOUCH. Not too much, but enough. I am still battling some hunger in the afternoon. These calories will be nutrition dense.
2. Water Intake has been TANKING. I am used to drinking so much diet soda that I need to remember I really need to increase my water intake. I will ensure I get the necessary amount every day this week.
MARATHON!!! What, you crazy girl--no way. Ummm Yes-way. My long term fitness goal to celebrate my weight loss and new life style will be for me to compete in a Marathon. Event to be determined. Details to Follow
Blog / Website Update
I have started my blog / website. I will have a website that includes my blog. As the website progresses, it will include healthy recipes, exercises, other weight loss blogs, inspirational quotes, before/after pictures and other fun and exciting things...
Week Fitness Goals:
Monday - Walk/Jog: 2.0 Miles; Gym: Eliptical 40 minutes
Tuesday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Spin Class
Wednesday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Body Pump / Core CX Works
Thursday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Easy Spin 20 minutes
Friday - Walk / Jog 2.0 Miles; Gym: Eliptical 30 minutes
Saturday - Walk / Jog 3.0 Miles
Sunday- Off
Week Eating Goals:
1. I've determined I need to raise my daily intake of calories, a TOUCH. Not too much, but enough. I am still battling some hunger in the afternoon. These calories will be nutrition dense.
2. Water Intake has been TANKING. I am used to drinking so much diet soda that I need to remember I really need to increase my water intake. I will ensure I get the necessary amount every day this week.
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